i have had terrible self esteem for years (almsot my whole life)….and instead of gettign better..it is geting worse as i get older.i am only in my earlier twenties and already am worn out by life. i get joy out of almost nothing.
i have tried to fight the good fight, and have faith, and jsut ignore it or fight it, but it always comes back to this. always…no matter what.
i cannot function in society…i can’t do things for myself or speak for myself..as normal people do. my suicidal thoughts (or wanting to die) are becoming more rapid and intense.
i have bee living with this for years and do not know what to do…
no one knows and i don’t know who to talk to..
and to make it worse, i am catholic…and the hopelessness causes me to do things..well..aganst my faith.
im sorry for the rant…just dont know what to do..
A winged man (not an angel) appeared dressed in multicolored clothes and played a strange musical instrument that beautiful and harmonious music. then, thousands and thousands of children followed him with laughter and joy and dancing. Every child and adolescent and young adult-not just Christians, but Jewish, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu, Satanist, Pagan, Atheist and Agnostic, even infants, newborns, crippled, blind, deaf and mute followed him. While adults and crazy fanatics like Kirk Cameron, Pat Robertson, Fred Phelps and Tim LaHaye were still like statues and and insects started crawling and biting them. One of the tunes of the winged man was described as a song about mermaids, dragons and winged horses.
The children disappeared in the clouds on a mountain and found themselves in a country with animals, honey bees, fruit trees, palaces, mountains, sparrows, peacocks, wild roses, lilies, violets and heather.
This ‘Rapture’ is also mixed with fairy tales like the Piped Piper
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