I’m 18 years old and basically tired of living at my mother’s home. For all 18 years my mother has made my life hell. She makes me feel and calls me stupid or irresponsible but doesn’t try to help me improve. I have a job and she takes a lot of money from me to live with her (i.e. rent and cell phone bill). I have to pay her $100 for rent and $280 for the cell phone (paying off a big bill). For each day I’m late it’s an additional $5 per day. She is only letting me see my girlfriend 3 times a month because apparently my home life has to be my top priority. I’ve been working my ass off in school so she won’t have to pay for college (I’m fourth in my class) with scholarships. She basically always has me on a leash and always wants to keep her absolute control over my life so I get nothing and she gains everything I do. She plays these mind games where she seems like the responsible adult who is only looking out for my well being and acting like all she does is for my sake when really she can’t make it on her own or with her husband (step-father) and so I’m just an extra wallet for her. She’s like a queen and I’m her servant and if I don’t please her I get more and more taken away from me. I’ve had to do everything on my own from finding my job, having my friends teach me to drive because she doesn’t do anything to help, pay for my own expenses, study for school, everything. I understand that I’m 18 so I should be able to do this stuff on my own but c’mon I’m only human and it’s not like the second your turn 18 everything makes sense. Now my manager has her own place that she’d be willing to take me in. All I’d have to do is pay $50 a week (half of what I pay now at home), I’d have my own room in the attic, a few chores nothing major, no curfew, see my girlfriend whenever, she’d help me with my driving and school life, and she’s only about one or two years older than me. The only down side is that her and her roommate smoke and I do not, if I leave my mother would most likely not let me back (laughs a little), and I won’t see my other family (those on my mothers side, my dad’s side no problem ^-^). So should I stay at home with these conditions or leave to my managers house.
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my girlfriend it seems has driven a wedge between me and my friends. whenever she is around there is an awkardness. this is due to when she lived at our apartment she decided that she was the little queen of the place. I was fine dealing with that attitude but it was when she decided to pop off to my roommate who was only looking out for my best interest that this started. she never apologized to them just wrote a note saying she would stay out of their way from now on. I feel she needs to apologize but she won’t. she has a disgusting lack of respect but thinks that everyone should respect her. whenever she is asked to do something all of a sudden your controlling and your an asshole when seriously no one is trying to make her to do anything. for instance i reminded her to check up on a job she interviewed for (fyi she has never worked but maybe a month and 9 days our whole relationship) she flipped out. im tired of supporting her finacially she complains when i have no money and for some reason im expected to feed her every single day whenever she is hungry. she has never put forth the effort to give back any thing of equal value except im supposed to take affection from her or she thinks i want sex instead (and by equal value i mean anything i feel so dumb for doting on her as much as i have). she literally gets upset when i want my space i feel she may be overdependent on me. she doesn’t make friends easy because she feels that she will never get along with girls because shes to busy being a bitch. she doesnt understand that my friends sometimes don’t want to hang out with me and her they want to see me and im to feel guilty because she sitting at home bored. she makes me feel guilty when i don’t spend every waking moment with her. i am planning on moving in the fall for school and she makes me feel like im leaving her and abandoning her. she tells me all the time that im the only one she has because she feels alienated from the rest of the world including her family. she doent see herself as beautiful even though she is i dont know where her self esteem went. she is not the same girl i feel that i loved when we started dating. I don’t bring her around my family because of her attitude she doesnt act classy she acts like where ever she goes she is just free to act however she wants. i feel that her attitude and bitchy demeanor reflect upon me in a big way. what should i do i feel this is just the tip of the iceberg i could write in detail for days the things she has done that have built resentment in me.
p.s. she very rarely apologizes to even me or says please and thank you im expected to do her bidding at will she has even told me that im fucked up for not being happy to do things for her that was on xmas day when she made it a big deal that i leave my family to go spend time with hers.”what should make you happy is making me happy your supposed to do shit for me your MY boyfriend.” her words exactly she went through a phase where she would actually close her fist and swing at me because for some reasoning she was “threatened” by me dont think that im threatening she once attacked me for not taking my cell phone from her while i was in the middle of a shower i dont even know why she answered my phone but she flipped out told my friend to fuck himself and proceeded to make this into my fault because i asked her to just hang it up and please take it out of the shower(yes she was actually trying to force the phone into my hands while im sopping wet standing in running water.) end of story while i was drying off naked as the day i was born she became “threatned” because i told her the logical train of thought would be to A) not answer my phone B) answer and say ill call back or even c) ask me what she wanted to tell my friend.
plays on my guilt i feel terrible because she literally has nothing i do care for her but is has changed and i would like to remain her friend is that even possible at this point?
past couple of weeks i feel that she has been realizing this and shes trying even harder to be affectionate towards me but i just want her to see what i see and not tell me that i disagree with her point of view all the time she doesnt try and see mine. if she would sit down with my room mates and apologize even 5 months later i feel that the awkward tension that enters my apartment with her would be gone ive tried to explain to her you get the respect you give
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