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I just wasted a year of my life with a man who yes I still love but had to get away from. I am fighting my feelings towards him… he has always been there for me. My best friend… all my friends and family walked out of me and my daughters life cuz I was with him. They left me on the streets when I did leave him which pulled me right back to him… I used to be straight A prom queen socialite. To his personal bitch. Sry for the profanity but I am being blunt. He has been physical towards me and I eventually began to get physical back. And my family got a call one day from someone who saw my black eye after three weeks of the dispute and they picked up the pictures from the police dept. where I told them I was mugged cuz I love him and don’t wanna see him back in jail when he’s doing better for himself. They think I should turn him in but I won’t. Anyways they basically came to my house and told me to pack my shit I am going back to moms or my life will be hell they will take my child and put him behind bars. So I went. Now I am without a job I dropped out of college I lost my license they won’t let me drive without it. They took my cell phone so I do not call him… they make me follow their way which is hard because I am rebellious! I like my independence! I have been on my own since I was 17. And now I am being treaed like I am twelve.. it’s like I am 20! But I know it’s best… but still… I have so much hope. I could get my shit together and he gets his together with his probation and all that and we could end up back together… which I am hesitant to do because I do not want my daughter in that… because there will come a day where I might not be able to take her to the neighbors when we argue. And she could be hurt. Or traumatized! Or I could just get my priorities together for me and her. My baby’s father wants to be back together but I think my best bet is to be with NO ONE and focus on me and her. But I don’t know where to begin because I am so used to him doing everything. I am ashamed I had a government job that I lost thanks to him… but I still stayed because I love him… but I just need opinions… I am so confused!!!